I run at odds with myself a great deal of the time.
For instance, I tend to be a bit of a “piler” (rather than putting things back where they belong right away), and if I’m in the midst of a project, I can tolerate a goodly amount of messiness for awhile. But, I think best and am at my most creative when things are tidy.
I don’t particularly enjoy menu planning most of the time, but I really enjoy the results of having a complete menu plan, and the thrice-daily stress that plan relieves.
I’m not the best at putting laundry all away, but I love the sense of order and accomplishment I get from looking at a tidy closet or cupboard.
In the pursuit of perfecting myself, I find I’m constantly re-evaluating my practices, re-vamping household storage, and writing new and better project and to-do lists. I believe my spiral is predominantly upward, though some days it certainly feels the other way.
What got me thinking about this today? We have a leak in the drain line of our laundry at the house. Until the plumber can run a new line this week, I can’t use the washer without risking a good lot of water damage. A family of six, with a wardrobe minimalist for a matriarch, cannot skip doing laundry for a full week. As such, I found myself with seven very overfilled laundry baskets at the local coin-op laundry, doing the wash and clearing out my planning notebook just for fun.
The lists I found date back to early April, when we first moved into our current home. I was pleased to see that about 75% of our plans at the time have come to fruition, and most of the rest, we’ve changed our minds in favor of things that are working for us.
Being “organized” and “well-planned” definitely is not an end result for me. It’s very much a work-in-progress! I’m hoping it’s helpful for my children to see Mom plan, work, and re-draft in the pursuit of Things That Work For Us, hoping they will see that they don’t have to get it right the first time, or even the fortieth time, if they’re willing to keep analyzing what works in their lives, and make changes to better themselves. I’m hoping they see that we don’t have to have stacks of money in order to live comfortably, and that we can make big changes in our lives with a bit of cooperative work.
In mid-October, I’ll post pictures of one area we’ve “upgraded” in our little home–turning half of the dungeon-like basement into a Craft & Lego Dungeon with a little wood-working, a few cans of paint, and a lot of elbow-grease.
Until then, I’ll be content that on my project list for that half of the basement, 9 of the 10 items are crossed off, and we’re ready to move forward.